The best Christmas gift I ever had…

“He brought me up out of a horrible pit, out of the miry clay, and set my feet upon the rock, and established my steps.

He has put a new song in my mouth – Praise to God!”

(Psalm 40:2-3)

It’s Christmas time, the happiest and busiest season of the year when everyone is giving gifts and expecting to receive gifts. I remember a time in my childhood when my family would gather at the Christmas table and exchange forgiveness and expect better things in our relationships in the years to come. The time came when I had my own family and continued this tradition of my parents, this tradition of hoping for a better life, a better time to come. In 1990 was a Christmas that reversed the course of my and my family’s life.

Two days before Christmas Eve, I was sitting in one of the bars in my hometown, Vilnius, sick and lonely. I was thirty-one years old. My life was spiraling downward. At that time I was a famous jazz musician and composer, performing and recording internationally. My music was in the top 10 of national radio and TV. However, the fame could not fill the emptiness in my heart that was growing more and more. I was addicted to alcohol and was constantly cheating in my marriage. These evils were destroying me from inside out. I was watching through the window of the bar as people were rushing around buying gifts and preparing for the holiday. Inside of me, however, I was feeling hopeless and immersed in feelings of deep depression. Suddenly, in this bar at that moment, an indescribable light fell upon me and I heard a clear voice from this light say, ‘What are you doing here? This isn’t the place where you belong. Get up and go home. In two days your life will be completely changed.’

This was not a hallucination because immediately I became sober. In the previous seven months I had been experiencing severe pains in my pancreas area and they ceased instantly at that moment. Deep inside I knew that was the Lord. I looked around and came to my senses, asking myself, ‘Really, what am I doing here?’ I went home and two days later my wife, Violeta, took me to the church she had been attending for almost two years. When I stepped into the place where people were worshipping, I felt the same energy that I had experienced in the bar with the light two days previous. That night I gave my life to Savior Jesus Christ and since that moment, he wasn’t a religious figure who was born in Bethlehem, but was real, born in my heart.

God miraculously restored my health, my family, and my marriage which was on the edge of divorce. He changed my heart and my sound. He sent us to the nations to bring them the Good News of the Father’s love. Lord Jesus saved what was lost in me – sonship. He brought me into the place where I belong before creation – the Father’s heart.


As they pass through the valley of Baca (mourning), they make it a spring; The rain also covers it with pools. They go from strength to strength; each one appears before God in Zion

(Psalm 84:6-7)

In July 2005 after trip to Far East Russia I began to feel a strange tickling in my throat. Thinking that it was just a consequence after traveling, I didn’t pay much attention to it. But month after it continued, and the tickling turned into pain. In April 2006 after a tonsil removal surgery I was diagnosed with a severe form of throat cancer.

At the end of 2005 the Lord spoke to me through a prophetess that a time when my faith would be tested was coming.

I had to make a decision – prepare for my funeral, or put my trust in the Lord. I heard a thousand times the name of Jesus is above all names, including cancer, but to make it personal, that was a point of breakthrough. I compiled all Scriptures about healing, selected worship CDs and prepared myself for battle. At that time I was terribly overweight, so here my personal battle began. I changed my diet, removing all processed and fast foods and I lost weight very quickly. In 5 months I lost 70 pounds. But in my mind the battle was waging intensely. No single word, faith formula, or confession had an impact in my being except the word I received from Dr. Mahesh Chavda in May from Matthew 15:13, that “every plant that my Father didn’t plant will be uprooted…”

Prayer warriors at my home church and across the nation and the world were interceding and fasting for my life constantly. Physically I felt better because of detoxification and weight loss, but the pain in my throat was growing more and more every week. In my heart I knew I had to reach a greater place of connection with the Lord than I’d had ever before. Finally the moment arrived when the tumor had spread and enlarged to the point where I could no longer speak or eat and had great difficulty breathing, chewing, and swallowing. I was in severe pain day and night, bleeding from my mouth constantly – 2, 3, 4 days at a time. One of those nights when I felt totally hopeless and weak, all of sudden I experienced this tremendous wave of love, warming me inside and filling me with an unprecedented amount of power and strength. It was so overwhelming that I began to weep uncontrollably. Then I heard the voice of the Father saying to me, ‘That’s the place of your surrender, son. When you are weak, you are strong. It’s not about your spirituality, but about our intimate relationship. I want you to be in a place of my rest from which I can release my life changing power to the people that I’ll send you…’ That was a turning point from the bottom of hell to the place of His marvelous arms. My charismatic theology was ruined, but my spirit was resurrected.

In the beginning of December after detailed inspection, my doctor stated that, ‘98% of the tumor was gone. In the beginning of April after another inspection, my doctor stated that there is no visual evidence of any tumor.

On June 6, 2007 I received my final medical report which stated, ‘…nonvisualization of hypermetabolism in the mouth or neck. No evidence of residual, recurrent, or metastatic disease.’

I praise my Precious Savior for the second chance He gave me.

I’m grateful to such a wonderful medical team at REX Hospital In Raleigh, NC for the excellence of medical

I’m thankful to my home church and brethren around the world for their prayers and support.

Now I found new meaning of 1 Samuel 30:6, “But David strengthened himself in the Lord his God.” It became a real part of my life. Now it is time to “pursue, overtake, and recover all.” (1 Samuel 30:8)


“I shall not die, but live, and declare the works of the Lord.”

(Psalm 118:17)